Monday, February 26, 2007.

waiting on the world to change

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won
/Jet/

sometimes hearts are helpless.

- faris came over just now to visit us, looking impossibly amusingly cute in his casual clothes, black Birkenstocks(i couldnt stop staring at his toes and grinning) and carrying a messenger bag. he said i looked happy.
and we were too. we were happy to see him, jess and i.
seeing faris made us miss school suddenly.
i love that guy - he's so funny.
a charming character, that one.
and uh, my lecturer has the body of a school boy.
after he left, nita went like, 'eh, your teacher so young ah?'

- and i shouldnt insist on watching soccer the night before when i have to work the next day. makes me insanely sleepy in the office.
that said, i'm already planning to catch the 355am reading-man u FA Cup match, so.

{ 9:31:00 PM }

Sunday, February 25, 2007.

got bones?

tearing himself away from the congratulatory hugs and pats on the back, he runs to the sidelines, only to be swallowed up once again in a flurry of hugs and calls of congratulations from managers and assistant managers and substitute players.

finally, he calmly shrugs them off but just as you thought that he was ready to get back into the game, he turns and goes back to the bench, looking for that one person he meant to get to in the first place, before all those people swarmed around him.

and who was that person locked in ronaldo's elated embrace? was it his girlfriend... was it his daddy?

no, it was gabriel heinze.

"The goal was for my team-mates, my club, but especially for Gaby because he is my friend. He told me before the game that I would score, so I ran straight to him." - C. Ronaldo. (manutd.com)

is there something going on between dear ronaldo and heinze?

maybe, maybe.

-scratches chin contemplatingly-

oh yeah, Saturday morning @work, and i did this :

oh and that same saturday at work, jess and i were so bored we went movie browsing online.

and let me tell you, now is a good time to watch movies.

there're atleast 4 that i want to catch -

Little Children

The Pursuit of Happyness

Paris Jetaime

Half Nelson (only at The Picturehouse)

{ 1:44:00 PM }

Wednesday, February 21, 2007.

frog drowns while doing the butterfly

1. the weather today is listless, spaced out and bored to the balls, with occasional freezing.

2. im alone in the office. there's no music, entertainment - nothing. it's so quiet here that everytime the phone rings, i nearly jump out of my skin.

3. so far, the highlight of today has been sitting down with a delicious steaming mug of hot chocolate while contemplating onwhat to do. oh, and going out to get lunch alone and then later sitting down with takeaway kway teow goreng while contemplating on what to do.

4. i have no idea if you're even allowed to use the Internet here at the office for personal uses ( read: blogging) but whatever anyway.

5. oh, and guess who's back.

yes. enchanting edwin, or sar, as father calls him.

man u has him to thank, for this morning's slim Champions League win over Lille. i got up in time for the second-half and the score was still 0-0, so i guess i didnt miss much. Lille played their usual fast-paced aggressive football and while it's not entirely a bad thing, it was sometimes frustrating to see Rooney or Saha mess up a shot on goal just because a desperate Lille defender was pulling their shirts or tripping them blatantly.

the way Lille played, i dont think they cared much about committing fouls and getting booked. for them it was like, stop that player at all costs, regardless whether you're aiming a tackle at the ball or the opponent's ankles. like, i can almost imagine the coach shouting from the bench "Stop that man! STOPPP THAT MANNNNNNN!!!" everytime a man u player gets away with the ball.

and while you admire their grit and fighting spirit, it just makes for some ugly football.

but well, like madds said, it is not a beautiful game after all. it's not.

goals, that's all that matters.

and now, i will go back to contemplating on what to do next.

{ 2:08:00 PM }

Saturday, February 17, 2007.

be delicious

-bah and i have decided that you're t-bag.
-really? which one is he?
-(does an imitation of "hey purttty")he's the paedophile. you okay with that?
-haha. yeah, i like that.

i was flipping through a back issue of cubes the other day in the office, marveling at all that cool content and then suddenly i had a crazy thought.
Like, what if one day GM went into publishing. what if we started a magazine about all the things that we milahtants consider worth knowing?

it'll be fun, wouldn't it?
bah could do the graphic design, i could help with styling - so can madds, and the rest can pitch in articles and features according to their area of expertise!
and not only that, we can also use the magazine as a platform to promote our side business - Gengmilah Wedding Services, which is still in the pipeline, by the way.

in fact, i already have an idea about one of the columns. we'll have one called 'The Madds&Yats Show' where there'll be updates about the latest footballing action. HEH.

{ 6:34:00 PM }

Thursday, February 15, 2007.

alamak.com betul

shit.
this new Blogger version thing is so menyakitkan kepala otak aku.
i think i pressed something accidentally and now my previous layout is gone.
argh, tagboard too.

will have to make do with this one i guess.
till i have more time to do something else.
pfffft.

{ 10:51:00 PM }

bounce. flow. ok go.

Oh it's opening time
down on Fascination Street
so let's cut the conversation
and get out for a bit
/the cure/

there are only so many back issues of ish, d+a, space and cubes that you can flip through without having your eyes start to glaze over.

{ 10:07:00 PM }

Sunday, February 11, 2007.

the nawab of baitar says

i know you dont mean a lot of what you say. i know you dont mean what you say when youre angry. but still why do you say them why do you say such things how can you say such things?
because they hurt like something stupid. they hurt. they. hurt. me.
in fact sometimes i think you dont care about other peoples feelings you dont care about my feelings all you care about is unleashing your anger getting it out saying things just because they make you feel goddamn better.

how would you like it
if everyone was as reckless with their words how would you like it
if i was reckless with my words?

{ 9:46:00 PM }

Friday, February 09, 2007.

snowy like you

'i call it my modus operandi.'

taking the train back from school with a cute someone was fun. we walked to the mrt together and yeah, it was nice - he was telling me how he screwed up first sem and had to retake so now he's got 3 sems to go instead of 2 before graduation - and we were joking and smiling along. and then when we reached the mrt he asked whether i was in a hurry whether i could wait because he hadnt finished his cigarette. and then suddenly this big guy from drama club coming over and saying hello took a cigarette from him and claimed to know him even though i could see he couldnt remember the guy. and how i told him to meet me outside the shop at the mrt because i wanted to go toilet first and then i was standing there trying not to grin as i watched him walk up with that electric guitar he was carrying on his back. and i remembered thinking i liked how he walked with the guitar, kind of in a selenge way which was cute, and not like mr. (ahem)dodgy(ahem).
and uh, i dont know why i found that whole episode of going back with him rather ticklish. like you know, macam kelakar gitu. macam matair.
the guys in my drama class are pretty fun pretty friendly but i dont know what is it about him but i'm slightly slightly attracted. well he's not ah beng-ish and not one of those geeky book-types either, so i guess i find him ok cool. and it doesnt hurt that somehow we can click, somehow we have stuff to talk about.

oh gee, i must be bored, for trivial things like these to make it into my entries. i must be bored at school, to get reasonably excited about going home with a friend from drama class.
but yeah, that said, it's fun to flirt with good-english-speaking chinese guys who just happen to be cute, even if they dont like you and you dont like them.

and hang in there, snowflake. this is just to say that i feel your pain. maybe, like madds says, for things to get better, they hafta get worse.

{ 11:20:00 PM }

Thursday, February 08, 2007.

'pleaseeee, just eat us up, Mr.Cat!'

hahah. i was watching one of those old Looney Tunes cartoons on tv and it was like, the silliest cutest story ever.
there were these two house mice who ate so much cheese that they grew tired of it and then swore off cheese. and then i dont know why but apparently they wanted to commit suicide, so very smartly, with all the mousey wisdom they could come up with, they went in search of this big yellow-and-red cat and then jumped into his mouth.
and funnily enough, this particular cat has this phobia about eating mice so he spits them out right after. and this goes on for a while, the cat spitting them out, the mice jumping right back into his mouth, and the cat spitting them out again.
oh, and for some reason, the cat was stressed up by this, so he went off to find the bulldog in his doghouse and tried to pick a fight, so that the bulldog will eat him up or something.
but, like how cartoons go, the bulldog also for some reason phobia nak makan kucing tu so he also gets stressed.
and then the bulldog starts typing this report thing on the typewriter but then he pulls out the paper and goes ' mice dont eat cheese.. cat doesnt eat mouse.. OHHH IT DOESNT ADD UP!!!'

HAHAH. im sorry if you had to read that whole long narration about the cartoon. but i just find it really very hilarious. cartoons are good for you.

and oh dear, i just realised that i've written two entries in one afternoon. i must be bored.

{ 5:16:00 PM }

ode.

can you be directionless, but not lost?

i just finished this novel, Fortunate Son, by a certain Walter Mosley.
and it's really beautiful, the story. i love that character Thomas. you should read it.
oh, by the way, i just remembered that that kundera novel is still sitting at home on that table collecting dust, along with another book i've yet to touch. pfft.

oh and by the way, i love you, you.

{ 1:16:00 PM }

Tuesday, February 06, 2007.

cast it far

- Now I never meant to do you wrong,
that's what I came here to say.
But if I was wrong, then I'm sorry
I don't let it stand in our way.
As my head just aches when I think of,
the things that I shouldn't have done.
But life is for living, we all know
And I don't wanna live it alone -

to realise the true value of a father, lose one.

{ 9:36:00 PM }

Saturday, February 03, 2007.

macam rusa jatuh longkang

two comedies in a day.

well, after today i can tick one movie off my list of afdlin shauki must-watchs.
baik punya cilok was good. crappy messy hilarious, but good. really entertaining.
i love afdlin shauki. the guy's so effortlessly funny.
ahh, throw in afdlin shauki, hans isaac, ac mizal and oh, harith iskandar too.. and i think that's malaysian comedy at it's best right there.

down with love just now at ch5 was good too. not brilliant, just good.
loved the colours, the clothes they got to wear, the sprawling sets..
set in 1962 huh. i like.
and of course, ewan mcgregor was irritatingly endearingly charming.

so yeah, i spent saturday monkeying around at home and doing nothing and even got two movies squeezed in.
pretty productive huh.

okay i wanna watch more movies.
apocalypto or miss potter.
so, who's gonna ask me out?
heh.

{ 10:20:00 PM }

Thursday, February 01, 2007.

getting sexy wrong.

<.jentayu .> HELLO MR. UNSTOPPABLE. says:
oh you can count on that
<.jentayu .> HELLO MR. UNSTOPPABLE. says:
you know how i work....
<.jentayu .> HELLO MR. UNSTOPPABLE. says:
chey HAHAHA
[ Madah ] Dae ya dern mi pai chaak shan says:
HAHA!! how you OPERATE
[ Madah ] Dae ya dern mi pai chaak shan says:
secret mission
[ Madah ] Dae ya dern mi pai chaak shan says:
hahahah!
<.jentayu .> HELLO MR. UNSTOPPABLE. says:
yes, how i operate. my modus operandi.
<.jentayu .> HELLO MR. UNSTOPPABLE. says:
its all underground baby
[ Madah ] Dae ya dern mi pai chaak shan says:
hahahha that word is perfect
[ Madah ] Dae ya dern mi pai chaak shan says:
underground
[ Madah ] Dae ya dern mi pai chaak shan says:
under feelings, under faces
[ Madah ] Dae ya dern mi pai chaak shan says:
under masks and and under pressure
<.jentayu .> HELLO MR. UNSTOPPABLE. says:
under... things?
<.jentayu .> HELLO MR. UNSTOPPABLE. says:
lol
[ Madah ] Dae ya dern mi pai chaak shan says:
HAHA!!!i was working my way up to that!

hahah. friendly is you and me indeed.

by the way, i would agree with two things about last night's game at the stadium :
1, that singapore did step up their game against thailand.
and 2, that thailand was the better team.
ok, that's it. i want to talk about man utd.

the goals from ronaldo, rooney and larsson was worth waking up at 4am for.
heh. the ron & roon show indeed.
without giggs and scholes, man utd's midfield was a tad kucar-kacir, but yeah it was a good game.
* pats madds on the back

{ 4:30:00 PM }

lonelily.

myPIC

curly,female,
turning 22.

Mess of curly crazy hair. Likes fresh flowers, strawberries, chocolate, cili padi, reading, reading.. and oh Johnny Depp. Listens to corinne bailey rae john mayer killers snow patrol coldplay damien lisa etc etc.