Friday, April 27, 2007.

friday, no-school day

i love this picture of coldplay.
guy berryman looks hawt.

and yes, i know i know... i keep reverting from classic template to the basic template types, and then back to classic again - i'm fickle like that.

for some reason, they keep showing the re-run of that man u-milan match.
and, ughhh everytime i see that second kaka goal i want to kill evra.
because he really just came out of nowhere and tackled heinze, instead of trying to stop the advancing kaka. it was like he was possessed or something, that french boy.
everytime i watch that, i want to grab him by his little muscled shoulders, shake him hard and shout into his face - " you are supposed to tackle the striker, not your fellow defender!!!"

oh, and
my friend's uncle is on life-support machine, i want to tell him.
but you're not comatose, why arent you talking to me?
why
arent you
talking,

i want to ask.

Labels: music, off-kilter, soccer

{ 3:19:00 PM }

Thursday, April 26, 2007.

make me

nothing is as spot-on, nothing is as in-your-face ouch as self-inflicted pain.
stupid girl. you go look it up, you go looking for it and then you're left reeling, going "NOOOOOO...."
stupid girl.

oh, and it's almost funny - how we expect honesty from other people all the time but when it finally hits you like a slap in the face you can't handle it.
it irritates.

i was flipping through a graphic novel from sabbs' table just now and it was interesting. like, weird-interesting.
it was about an alchemist who created a girl out of nowhere and then the girl later falls in love with napoleon freaking bonaparte and then they became lovers and she gives birth to a black cat called maurice.
charming stuff.

oh, according to robbie williams, pain walks down a one-way street.

Labels: books, off-kilter, that other species

{ 10:05:00 AM }

Wednesday, April 25, 2007.

slowly, now

oh god. i saw his name and out of nowhere my heart performs a funny back-flip.

it's very curious, this. but i shouldn't worry.

BY THE WAY, man u-ac milan this morning. (yes, i'm gonna talk about soccer, boo hoo.)

put simply, i think it was milan's first-half and man u's second.
or rather, it was kaka's first-half. those two goals from him were brilliant, no thanks to man u's defence. ( which, by the way, was preposterous. come on now, vidic, ferdinand, neville!)

after ronaldo's early goal things just started going downhill.

in fact, the first-half was pretty nightmarish, actually.

i remember watching in agony, just being pasrah as i watched how easily kaka terrorised the defence and broke through to the penalty area.

and all these thoughts running around in my head like headless chickens -

" oh no no NOOO milan is the better team milan is the better team... NO.. impending doom impending doommmmm..!"

because man u wasn't quite getting into the game yet, and then suddenly these brilliant people like kaka and pirlo and goddamnit maldini were appearing left right and centre

and the only people man u has to defend their goal apart from edwin( yes, we're on first-name terms, madds. don't ask. heh) was their makeshift defence of evra, heinze and brown.

oh, and yeah, fletcher. i thought the scottish lad did well - ferguson would be proud.

and even though man u brilliant in the second-half, even though they fought hard and attacked like crazy to get the game back, even though rooney produced two killer goals, i'm not happy.

because uh, we conceded two away goals. and you know what happens with away goals when you have these kind of first leg, second leg matches.

right now, the two away goals are looking like a giant Titanic ship marooned in front of fergie's office.

he has GOT to figure out a way to get around it.

{ 10:38:00 AM }

Tuesday, April 24, 2007.

blastferme

there is that girl, who constantly asks herself, is she pretty enough, is she pretty enough. there's also another girl - who walks without looking, who bumps into walls and then says sorry after that. and then, there's that girl who has a tendency to laugh out loud in toilet cubicles. oh, and there's this other girl, who hates words sometimes because they make her cry so.
all thes girls - well, actually all these girls are really the same person.
and they only want one thing.

oh, by the way, there is this other weird girl who's wearing a borrowed black fedora at a lopsided angle on her head and who has a small angry red pimple in the middle of two eyebrows. but aha, that would be the girl who's typing this out now.

Labels: off-kilter, random

{ 1:16:00 PM }

Monday, April 23, 2007.

utop:a now

You are the sweetest thing i've found since whenever
You're the only way my time is measured
You might be the silent type
but you're advertising louder now
/mraz/

charlene roping in the milahtary unit in a one-off special mission,
Operation Kidnap Bahriah From Her House, done a la MTV's Room Raiders, was quite a success.
and Kaki 5 was quite nice, quite pleasant actually. very chillax.
Happy Birthday, my Bedah Belacan.

and this is just to say that heinze was impossibly cute.
really, absolutely yummy.
so much so in fact that i feel like smacking someone.
because he's married, yo.
-dunks head in toilet bowl-

Labels: birthday, off-kilter, that other species

{ 11:43:00 AM }

Saturday, April 21, 2007.

12 monkeys(and a hippopotamus somewhere)

-games, they vegetize you. see?
if you play the games, you're voluntarily taking a trainquilizer!

12 monkeys is one hell of a movie. i mean, on the surface
it's a sci-fi flick about one guy from the future going back in time to try to save the human race from being wiped out by some virus. but yeah, it's so much more than that, so much more.
in fact there's so many layers to film that i don't know where to start, really. ~~i don't even know if i fully understand it!~~ no, make that i don't even fully understand it.

so yeah, i'm not even gonna try to analyse it.
but i really enjoyed it though - really good stuff. and the making-of documentary after that - which i insisted on watching till the end and which was bloody longggg - helps you understand it better.

and brad pitt was absofuckinglutely brilliant too, as a manic-depressive mental patient.
he was just hilarious from start to finish - i was still laughing long after his scenes were over.
and then there's that guy, mr. i'm-not-really-from-outer space.
hahahahha.

ok i'm gonna go shower and hopefully get some sleep (if i can) before the game at 12am.
can't wait to watch heinze! and ronaldo and rooney and - ok, stop.

i just want to say that i'm really sad now that i really actually just feel fucked up and all that but no, you don't want another emo post do you

Labels: movies, off-kilter, random, soccer

{ 9:52:00 PM }

Friday, April 20, 2007.

sakit.

hey mr. curiosity

is it true what they've been saying about you

are you killing me?

you took care of the cat already

and for those who think it's heavy

is it the truth

or is it only gossip?

will you be that person

that person who will always be there

who will tell me things i want to hear,

who will say the things i want said -

even if they don't change things

even if they don't help

will you wipe away those tears

i am afraid to let fall

will you be that person that i want you to be?

because it hurts.

and i can't make it go.

Labels: off-kilter, random

{ 8:11:00 PM }

Tuesday, April 17, 2007.

the artistry of dead things

there is something about raj kamal jha's prose, the way he writes, that makes him so readable.
yes, i'm reading again, after what feels like endless weeks, so yay.
look it up, the blue bedspread and/or if you're afraid of heights, both by the author.

i don't like how i so easily laugh at people
how they so easily amuse me -
or rather, how i'm so easily amused by them
the way they talk, walk, move, eat, speak, gesticulate...
maybe i look at people too much.
maybe i notice too much.

by the way, 3rd year is already starting to be a bit of a puzzle,
if the new project is anything to go by.

only two hours into the first day and they start talking about mind, matter, time, cinematic notation(?) and freaking intristitial space. like, uh, binatang ape tu?

Labels: books, off-kilter, school

{ 9:38:00 PM }

Thursday, April 12, 2007.

zipedeedoo daa zipedeedoo

oh, so it's like that.

it's like you're in the designers' inner circle
and we're like the interns interns..

so when it's lunch you guys go and eat first while i go later, with the other interns.
and you're all like, 'hey, we're going for lunch first' and not
' hey, let's go for lunch'

bit elitist, don't you think jess?

but yeah, i only have 2 days left you know and i don't wanna be a whinestein
over these little things, so

Labels: trivia

{ 12:11:00 PM }

Wednesday, April 11, 2007.

like cinnamon

Dad, in an attempt to explain Roma's crippling defeat at Old Trafford this morning:

- Mafia dia boleh ugut orang.. tapi mafia dia dengan England tak agree.
Mafia dia banyak connection dengan Hongkong punye orang.. -

and then later, when o'shea was taken off suddenly, he didn't return to the bench but was escorted into the tunnel.
and i said - apasal? bini dia nak beranak eh? -
and dad said confidently, as though o'shea had just texted him right before - taklah, o'shea dapat emergency call. nenek dia sakit. -

oh, and when man u kept scoring one after another, hakim & i started talking about bomohs and how roma salah pasang bomoh.

anyway, my point is that it was worth waking up at 230am for. totally.
7-1, jangan main-main. talk about bulldozing and steamrolling over the italians.

Labels: bomoh, mafia, soccer

{ 9:16:00 PM }

Monday, April 09, 2007.

the league of extraordinary omelettes

a delicious lunch of piping hot naan
with daging masak merah indian-style.
yummy.

was reading iSH just now and if i remember correctly, designer karim rashid said that 'hope comes in the form of pirouetting butterflies...'
so yeah, let's keep a look out for pirouetting butterflies, shall we?

remember that freaky gaunt nyonya from the hair salon with bad decor?
the one who has hair like roadkill?
well, she smiled at me in the ladies just now.

Labels: food, trivia

{ 5:46:00 PM }

Sunday, April 08, 2007.

plasticated complicated

Blue as the sky, somber and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the road side,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Gotta love that afro hairdo
/corinne bailey rae/

mildly disturbing random thoughts
that stick to you like a second skin
slight uneasy randomness
that trails behind you like a train
it's a new week
oh it's a new week
come on now -

oh and hey he crosses my mind sometimes
in fact that one time he was even in my dream -
i don't know, really
maybe there' s something special
maybe there's something special about the chinese boy,
can't seem to put my finger on it

but yeah sometimes
sometimes i almost think
~~aku nak matair dengan dia~~~~, if only he'll have me~~

oh damn did i actually type that

{ 10:04:00 PM }

Thursday, April 05, 2007.

i miss the beach. yes, that dirty, litter-strewn excuse of a beach we have at Changi. but hey, atleast the sand is white and fine and there're not (that)many people around - or atleast the furthest part of Changi that my family always goes to.

i miss sitting down with Mum's air teh, miss walking on the sand, miss the clumsy-but-loads-of-fun version of beach soccer hakim and i always play.
we haven't gone in ages partly cos, well, you haven't exactly been keeping your promises recently have you but oh well i don't think you even notice so yeah let's not go to that.

oh look, it's 520 which means it's gonna be 6 soon which means i'm getting off soon. and tomorrow's good friday which means it's a PH!
Hmm, what shall i do tomorrow?
- twiddles thumbs -

speaking of which, aside from scanning stuff for richelle, sending emails to greg's clients and stuffing myself with (really good)chocolates every now and then, i've hardly done anything productive all day. not that stuffing yourself with chocolates is productive.

but yeah, those Swiss chocolates which the lady boss brought back from her trip to France are really sinfully good, especially the white chocolate ones. oh, and i tried the dark chocolate one too - the chocolateyness kind of catches you off-guard and i got a bit dizzy.

ok, will stop talking about chocolates.
till then.

{ 5:05:00 PM }

Monday, April 02, 2007.

veer off-course

words.
words, like secret scalpels of silver-bright destruction slicing through your heart.

your words wear me out. you wear me out.

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Coz I've tried, yes I've tried
But Still I don't know why
No I don't know why

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
/j.morrison/

Labels: off-kilter

{ 9:57:00 PM }

Sunday, April 01, 2007.

melancholy, like a distant friend

the motorcycles diaries was brilliant. yes, blindingly brilliant and not bling-bling brilliant, right bah? and thanks for the dvd.
been wanting to get hold of the film or the book for what seems like forever.

and then there's gael garcia bernal. like scofield, only better - yummier. why, he's got a lot more expression, haha.

and i like that other guy, too, the one who plays granado.

which reminds me, i read this book once, a long while ago - really long ago, because i know i liked it but can't remember why.

loving che, by ana menendez.
it's about this cuban woman who had a love affair with che guevara, during the Revolution. maybe i should look it up again, just because.

in other (soccer)news, i watched two games back-to-back yesterday night. twin results, both with a 4-1 scoreline at full-time. and some brilliant footballing too.

liverpool completely bulldozing over arsenal, courtesy of a hat-trick from crouch. baik ah, you mat rep you.

and man u later - a sucky first half followed by something close to an electrifying second half.

4 goals in 45mins is no mean feat, i tell you. yes, maddy, they got all their goals in second half! and get this - solsky made an appearance - an scored, too!

and no, don't throw that shoe at me, i already asked you to stay woman. heh.

okay, back to getting on with the rest of the day.

i haven't showered, too.

ta.

Labels: movies

{ 1:50:00 PM }

lonelily.

myPIC

curly,female,
turning 22.

Mess of curly crazy hair. Likes fresh flowers, strawberries, chocolate, cili padi, reading, reading.. and oh Johnny Depp. Listens to corinne bailey rae john mayer killers snow patrol coldplay damien lisa etc etc.